its been more than a month since you left.... its been more than a year since we've talked every nite... its been more than a lifetime since i have been waiting for someone like you to make me smile.....
i cant believe a year has flown by.... i promise you that this year has been the happiest year of my life.... i have smiled a million times more than ever before... i have laughed from the bottom most pit in my stomach, i have cried with all i had when u left from my house to go back to chennai, i have felt a surge of joy that made me lose myself for a moment when i saw u walking down the road to my house, i have felt more secure than i can imagine it would feel to be in a mother's womb, i have matured into someone who knows who i am, i have learnt that i can be a child with you, i have seen you angry, i have seen jesus in your eyes, i have heard u sing to me, i have held you close, i have been held close in teh strongest arms ever, i have learnt that love like yours deserves more respect than i can give, i have learnt the meaning of loyalty, i have learnt that crying does not get u anything, i have learnt that u hate onions, i have seen you be completely selfless, i have felt passion, excitement, the tingling sensation and adrenaline pumping when i am near you while at the same time feeling secure, safe, peaceful and calm knowing you are with me. i have heard you pray the most beautiful prayers ever, i have watched u serve in chapel, i have a ring with your name on my hand at all times, i have a truckload of memories in which u are the hero, i have a sweater that was once yours but now touches my skin every nite i sleep, i have the Dr. Lips that u gave me, i know that u hate uncertainty but u love me despite the fact that i am the cause of the greatest uncertainty in your life, i have spoken to everyone in your family and fallen in love with them as well, i spend every spare moment wondering what u would be doing, i make decisions based on what is good for "us" not just for me, i realize each day how lucky i am to have someone as wonderful, loyal, brilliant, supportive, handsome and loving as you as the to-be father of my kids. i thank god each day for letting us cross paths and pray that he keeps our paths as one from this day forth. i sing your praises to anyone who will listen, im filled with pride whenever i think of you and i take most pride in the fact that i am yours as your wife than in anything else.... that is my biggest achievement. i love you more each day for the trust you have in me, for investing your hopes and dreams in me. over this year i have learnt that each smile that is genuine is dedicated to you. over this year i have seen how much love can motivate me to do things i would never even try my hand at - like making a scrapbook or a cd. i have learnt that there is nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to being my complete foolish self with you. i have seen the tremendous amount of patience that you have when it comes to me.
i can now truthfully and whole heartedly say that i have felt love!
but most of all, after one year of being together i want to tell you that somewhere along the way, you have come to know me better than i know myself and more surprisingly, you love me for who i am and i love you for being my constant support, my treasure, my confidante, my lover, my friend, my adviser and the one and only person who knows me for who i really am!
i love you! forever and a day!
